Happiness

Trying to be happy,
when every single bone in your body
is twisting on itself
new joints forming
new twists and turns
when your blood is drowning in you
filling you up to your brim
clutching at nonexistent outstretched arms
looking for survival
desperate for redemption.
trying to be happy,
when all you want to do
is lie in a pool of your own tears
beating against waves and currents.
trying to be happy,
when all the bets are against you.

-Happiness(i'm waiting for me to save me)